KEKXIFIED

Are we really that helpless?

‘Philippines’ - such a rich country, but sadly, it is ruled and filled with powerful greedy people. On the other hand, what’s actually worse is, It is also filled with people who doesn’t just stop complaining but does not actually do a thing about any issue concerning the country but just tweet away their “pa- smart” feelings. SImpleng pagtapon nga ng basura hindi niyo alam gawin eh, tapos lahat ng baha sa kapiligiran isisisi niyo sa gobyerno? Aren’t you feeling guilty as well?

Look around you little shits. YOU DID THIS. Napakahirap ba magtapon ng basura sa tamang lugar? nung election sino mga pinagboboboto niyo? Yan tayo eh! Pag may kalamidad na, hanapan ng masisisi eh… sino ba bumoto kay revilla dahil artista siya at idol niyo siya? Sino bumoto kay sotto dahil kapatid siya ni bossing kung saan kahit nag plagiarize na siya ng speech niya isa pa din siya sa top na binoto ng mga Pilipino… wag na natin isa isahin pa sila…. 

And you politicians? hindi ba dapat linalaan niyo yung pera namin na pinag paguran in fixing the drainage system of this whole fucking country? Hindi pa kayo natuto sa ondoy? Alam niyong top problem to ng pilipinas yearly pero wala kahit isa sa naatasan nag isip rumesponde tungkol dito bago pa mangyari ang sakuna. Buti pa nga si Gordon na hindi pinala maging senador, inaaksyonan ang issue na to eh.. Or bakit kaya hindi ilinaan sa edukasyon kung saan dapat dito nakapondo ang pinaka malaking halaga para naman sa susunod na eleksyon, ang mga boboto ay matatalino na at nalinawan kung sino karapat dapat nahahalal sa pwesto… Sa mga nagpapagod araw araw at nagkakayod at nagbabayad naman ng tax ng maayos, hindi pa ba sapat na magkaroon sila ng maayos na transportasyon? LOOK AROUND, pano niyo nasisikmura ilagay ang paa niyo sa mamahaling sapatos mula pransya o di kaya bag na mas mahal pa sa pagkain ng tao sa isang buwan gamit ang pera ng bansa? Ano na? Nagpapakamatay kayo iboto ng mga tao sa pangakong magbibigay kayo ng magandang serbisyo but you pocketed all of the funds and spent them in trips around the world, shopping for luxury bags and shoes that can even feed a whole Filipino family for a year? 

Huwag niyo sasabihin na hindi sapat ang pondo ng Pilipinas! Each senator/congressman are given a budget to spend on their projects. They donate to non-government organizations. Huwag niyo kaming gawing tanga! Para sa mga hindi pa alam, I’ll lay this in the simplest manner, this Janet Napoles character asks for money from the government to fund her ghost projects. Basically, she steals the taxes we pay for her own and the government official’s pocket.

The congressmen are obviously quiet about the issue kasi sangkot sangkot lang din to eh… pag may nahuli, magkakadamayan na. Si Senator Gringo Honasan nga biglang hindi niya daw kilala si Janet Napoles. Ano kaya yun? This Janet Napoles btw, owns like 30 luxury cars and 28 houses and she claims it’s all from her coal mine in Indonesia, yeah right!  I could go on but you probably know them or will see them in the news. Right now, the NBI are taking charge of this issue but you know what’s worse, though? Lets say Napoles gets arrested, what happens then? It’s a vicious cycle! You can’t get the money back, you can’t touch her properties and justice cannot still prevail, YET. It will all just rot. Best example: Gloria Macapagal Arroyo. I mean, what about the government officials that are affiliated with her? They will all just deny and get away with it. It’s very hypocritical of them to say they fear The Lord, when obviously they don’t even listen to their conscience. We live in Mr. Krabs country, it’s all about “money, money, money”. The “Mr krabs” doesn’t even care about the “employee” or any of his “customers”. He buys cheap stuff for his “restaurant” so he can pocket more money…di bali ng madehado ang customer at worker niya as long as yumaman siya. The “restaurant” is the philippines tinitipid tayo para madaming maibulsa. You know the famous fast food line? “Customer is always right ?” sounds very similar diba?… ahh, yes “tayo ang boss”.

I just fucking hope that the people involved in the pork barrel scam are swimming in guilt right now, since they can’t possibly be swimming in flood because they stole everyone’s money and bought hilltop houses or a lot of house options on where to stay just to keep them safe and let the poor die or get sick. Anyway for them, mababaon din sa limot ang issue. Sad but true. 

I am hoping that it is still possible to live in the Philippines as a first world country. Honestly, I don’t have a clue on how that could happen, but I’m definitely praying it will.

ENER- “G”

Stress, stress, STRESS! But thank God though; I believe it’s better that way than doing nothing. Perhaps my mind and body are pretty much abused and exhausted that not one pill can turn back my lost sleep and/or eradicate my aching feet but hey, all of it I do not regret because it’s all for my future. I am not born with a silver spoon so if I want to have fun, I need to work hard for it. If I want to have my own house after 10 years, I need to work beyond the usual office hours, if I want to travel, I need not be contented on what I am now.

 I may not living the “life” now but I’ll be there soon. Good thing I’m charged with full batt.- “ener-G” that keeps me going.

papan-scene

Admit it, we are all really papansin in many ways because if we weren’t, why do we have instagram, twitter and facebook? That’s basically the use of it…

Deny all you want but we all fall to papansin category. I mean, you wouldn’t post a hashtag selfie because of nothing. perhaps you felt beautiful that time so you had the need to capture your face and show it to everybody, or you have a new hair cut, or someone did your make up… whatever your reason is,  Isn’t that papansin? but that’s not my point… it’s all right to be papansin once in a while,  you felt beautiful that time, you had a haircut that is insta-worthy and nobody should be against that, right? it’s your so –called freedom. But the problem comes in if you do hashtag selfie day per day! you don’t want your followers to be like “HEYYYY, we know that’s how you look like, you don’t have to show that a LOT”  sabi nga nila, too much is nakakaumay.  Kahit ba you change your caption everyday with a different selfie photo, mukha mo pa din yan, pinaulit ulit mo lang… anong sense?

 Ex:

(Sad face photo) caption: I’m having a bad day, because chenelyn, but hey tomorrow is a new beginning. I love sundays ( the usual sad phrase at the start with positivity to end the sentence)

(Flabbergasted face): Caption: I feel so alive,  hello there sun!

(Angry Face) ; Caption: traffic all over ayala, couldn’t this day be  any worst?

(Ecstatic face) Caption: it’s Friday!

I’m like, are you trying to create a set of emoji of your face sa instagram?

I repeat it’s okay to hashtag selfie but not your entire move needs not to be captured.  That’s a different range of papansin na .. and what differentiates people sa instagram  from each other is some falls from a nakakairitang level of papansin already. I call them

 papan-SCENE! in tagalog, ma-eksena! You broadcast every inch of your emotion? Is it really necessary? But oh well, I still follow you; I like checking your profile so I can rant things that aren’t really necessary.  Parang tacsiyapo, nakakapagwala ako sa mga mabababang dahilan.

Long neck. ( yup, i’m bored) hashtag i need a new tvc project huhu

Long neck. ( yup, i’m bored) hashtag i need a new tvc project huhu

no explanation required

Nobody owns us.

I’m a strong believer that not everything you do needs an explanation. Cliché as it may sound; but we DON’T live to please anybody.

If you want a tattoo, get one. if you rather stay home, it’s okay to miss the gathering. If you’re gay, let it out. Whatever it is, don’t forget that you’re living for yourself. YOU don’t owe anyone an explanation for your choices or preferences. I mean judge as much as they want;  at least you know to yourself that you’re not one hell of a pretentious bitch who tries hard too much. 

Cursed – ten (Kristen)

Today is sorta hell for me, I mean it was supposedly a relax working day, one fucking chill day, but it wasn’t. I went to office for scheduled grading and completion of 5 project clearances ( na yung isa dun na complete ko na pero nalost ng accounting). Simple errands lang diba? However, as cursed as I stated on my blog title, my clearance for project A has a record of lost mac connector, for project b, there’s no fire wire 400 and firewire 800, for project C incomplete liquidation from the PM, however lucky for me, project D is finally complete after 2 fucking months of waiting for technical billings.  

Kamusta diba? What annoys me most is *something something that I’m not suppose to tell here because I can’t rant about them because it’s confidential* mahirap na Diyos “ata” sila eh, you can’t say anything. Dapat stoic lang ang peg. But anyway, as cursed as I am today, I am positive enough and hoping for better days ahead. I can’t wait for this day to end, I want to move on to my next project. kung mabibigyan. (no pun intended)

stress leave?

I’m beginning to think taking a break from work would be beneficial for me, I’m just not sure if it’ll help me from my other heavier problem tho. (I need to be busy with something, i just don’t know what) I need to fix myself, I need to be happy.  Like, besides the weight gain and soreness, I need to feel beautiful. All this depression is taking over me. We’re not even talking about mental issues, yeah, the fatigue and the “wanting to die all the time” thing gets really exhausting.

one cold beer pls. 

Here we go again…

Hayy, I just had to let this one out because I feel like I became too fucking emotional this year 2013.It’s almost mid year and I don’t see any life progress. It’s becoming a routine and I’m too burnt out already! Is it because I don’t have any cathartic release anymore? I mean, I already pushed myself away from friends, I barely see my family, I stopped seeking for adventure, I got fat and ugly… what’s even worst is I get mad as a hatter like all the time, with no apparent reason!  I honestly hate who I’ve become now. Sometimes, I just want to live somewhere I don’t know anyone and rest. For once, I want to be foreign and explore things without anyone bothering me or dictates me what’s wrong or right.

Right now, I feel like punching someone over and over or do firing and print photos of the people I loathe and make all those motherfucker my target! Basta, what I feel right now is I’m trapped in a cycle of trying to do my best and proving myself too much from people who doesn’t even give a single fuck. I don’t know how to end the cycle honestly… is resignation my option? Definitely… But what holds me back is that I’m too scared of looking weak, scared of starting new, scared of looking for another job and I just couldn’t see how to resolve my situation. It was like staring into an abyss. What holds me nalang siguro is I just know life will all just work itself out in the end. Patience, Kristen.

You don’t own me.

Hard work has a limit too, uhm, excuse me, not because I can do it, means I should tolerate what is happening… To tell you honestly, I’m not happy anymore, I just miss the old me. The old Kex who makes decision without holding back… I don’t know the exact reason why I’m still staying…onti na lang talaga, onti na lang ang pasensya ko. I hope, in time, I can figure this out, but for now tiis na lang muna :|

who said money can’t buy happiness?

Sure, money can’t buy you just happiness. It can however, solve the problems that take away your happiness.

I really hate the fact that finances control so much of our lives. I mean we can’t deny the fact that money plays such a huge part to us because if it isn’t that much important, why are we working then? for basic needs? NO! whoever says that is a hypocrite! 

I mean what else can make you happy, huh? 

movies = 180 bucks

food = not less than 150 bucks

TV = 15,000 for the cheapest brand

Internet = 1900 a month 

Stay at home= electric bills = still money

Hang out with friends = Transportation= not less than 100 pesos 

Travel= Oh don’t let me start computing!

Everything has a price tag,I tell you!  I mean what else doesn’t involve money? tell me? It sucks big time because if money is tight, it just doesn’t feel right! (okay, sorry for the lame intent of rhyming words) but seriously, kidding aside,  I think I need extra income! Not that I’m complaining with my current work but it’s just not enough for my “needs” (i’m not even whining about my wants yet but even for my needs, i always come short)… I just… I want to plan something special and  I’ve got a lot of  fun plans in my head, but I’m just too broke that it kinda holds me back since the question here is how will or how do I sustain that happiness? 

sabi nga ng kaibigan ko “buti pa si Angelica Panganiban nauuna maubos ang pasensya —ako kasi pera eh, kaya pla ang haba ng pasensya ko” - Karl Bautista