KEKXIFIED

This post is written straight from my heart and it might not mean a thing to some of you… As I am writing this one, I am crying so bad and I don’t know what to do anymore.. you see everything that is happening to me is not how I plan my 2012 would be..everything seems deteriorating and I don’t know how to take charge of my life anymore, my emotions are just so scattered and I cannot control it anymore. I am not myself anymore to be honest.

Everything I do lately is either horrible or mediocre and I hate myself for it. I’m uninspired, irritated 24/7, sad and lost. Everything is just not right for me and no one will understand how and why i’m feeling this way:(

No matter how I push myself to do things beyond what I’m capable, still, I have short comings and no matter how much I want to fill that up and be at my best, there will always be crap out there ready to mess with you!

As I speak, I actually don’t know what to do anymore but I know, in time, I’ll see that light.

It doesn’t help that I lost my cellphone right before I needed to contact a lot of people. 

Lately, I can say that am not much of a cellphone person already… I don’t have loads regularly and if I contact people, I always wait for them to call, why? because lately, I realized that most of my savings goes to SUPER150 a week because I think it’s the most sulit unli offer of globe whereas it tailor fits my personality that I’m lazy to communicate with people through texting. Anyways, this is not the point of my post but yes I lost my cellphone after lunching out with my friends @ Vikings not discovering that I lost my cellphone. I just realized that it’s gone 5 hours after we left the restaurant where I last held it. 

I was at Cafe Breton with Twinkle and Abby when I was looking for my cellphone to check perhaps the time and if I have message ( that was the only time I checked my phone after I last checked from Vikings) and it’s nowhere to be found in my bag! :( Twinkle tried to call my number and it says “it cannot be reached”. 

Oh well, I’ll take this as a lesson, maybe it happened for a reason..It’s just sad that I have to buy a new one for school purposes! :(

(oo ganyan talaga ako malungkot! charot)